Below are the 10 most recent journal entries recorded in erin_standridge's LiveJournal:

Thursday, May 19th, 2005
11:07 pm	Forced Pause I must put a pause on my writing for a while due to a lot of life matters. (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 15th, 2005
12:13 pm	Finals suck As you guys have noticed, I have not updated for a little over a week, and I am super sorry about all that, I had finals for classes I technally have never taken, but still had a general memory for-- but they were still tough... Probably the most interesting final I had to worry about was my Jazz Dance final-- I realy had to work to get that stuff all down right, because although my body knew it could do it, my mind kept telling me that I should not be able to bend like that and do splits and stuff-- it was VERY wierd-- especially with the tight unitard around my breasts and tights-- its really interesting, I think there are also a few of the guys in that class who stare at me-- so I can't help to do a few good moves (ignoring them, of course) just to give them something to see. ;) I did very well in all my finals, my body moved greatly for my dance final, and I am confident I got a good grade there, so yay for me! On to other news-- Mothers day was a lot of fun! Me and my mom went shopping and enjoyed ourselves all day really, I was not ashamed to be scene with her, well, not on mothers day anyway. ^_^ Me, my brother, and my father than did a joint effort in making dinner, she really enjoyed it, and I am really glad she did, moreso than usual. Finally-- Summer has started-- party time!!! Current Mood: ecstatic (Comment on this)
Friday, May 6th, 2005
12:36 pm	Girls don't know mechanics... So I was having a problem with my alternator in my Blazer, so I took it in to the mechanic, because I don't have the kind of abilities to fix it, nor the things to replace it with... So the machanic smirked as I pulled up, probably thinking I was some little cutsey girl who didnt know squat about cars-- he was probably gonna try and over charge me for it too. So I told him exactly what was wrong with the car and told him approximately how much it should cost. To say the least, he was dumbfounded. He agreed with me about the problem, told me the price (I was $1.20 off of the $298.80 repair, but I rounded...) and said it'd be ready by four, probably not stalling knowing that I also knew how long it'd take to fix the problem. What can I say, girl power! ;) So on the way home, I was walking (it was half a mile, big whoop) and a wierd guy pulled over and offered to give me a ride-- it was pretty wierd, since rarely do people pull over and offer to give me rides (especially since I wasn't even hitch hiking) but I wisely declined his offer... Hell-- I didn't even think I looked that good today-- I mean, I was wearing some hiphugger jeans at a tight shirt, showing off a little bit of my belly and the small of my back, but that was about it... Current Mood: amused (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 5th, 2005
12:14 am	Flirting at 40mph So tonight I went to the weekly gathering where the racers sit and watch the weeks races on a big screen TV-- there were not too many people there, although my friend Sam(antha) was there, so I got to hang out with her for a bit, talked a little about cute male drivers, which I surprisingly actually had an opinion on. After that we went to the go kart track. There were a bit of cute guys out there too, I raced with a few of them, and afterwards I sat down with a few other guys which I raced around for much of the time on the track. They complimented me on my driving and we quickly became friends, they were pretty cool. One of them went back to racing and I talked more with an individual named Jason. He was a really cool guy and I really enjoyed talking with him, we got pretty close in just a few hours of hanging out out there. I gave him my number, maybe I'll hear from him again some day. I still find it hard to describe what it's like to suddenly like men even more then women-- its not really like I am fighting myself on weather or not to like them, looking at guys and flirting with them suddenly feels natural. Current Mood: flirty (Comment on this)
Monday, May 2nd, 2005
10:39 pm	WOTCH THE AWSOMENESS!!! I am a big fan of the web comic The Wotch (www.thewotch.com) and I just want to show everyone this awsome video that a guy name Tran4of3 made-- he is totally awsome and if you arn't a fan of The Wotch yet, hopefully this video will change your mind. http://www.kdingo.net/champ/gallery/albums/Large/Wotch_Intro.swf I must admit, this video got me a lot more giddy than his last one did, but maybe thats the girl on me again. ^_^;;; Current Mood: bouncy (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 1st, 2005
8:11 pm	A productive Sunday afternoon Well-- to start off the story-- yesterday I had my first race since going through this little transformation, and I realized one thing early on-- When I have to put on a driving uniform, it's hard to get them over my pants-- and I don't often wear shorts because I never really cared for them. In my closet there were PLENTY of shorts, which meant that I obviously had no beef with them as a girl, so I wore some of my shorter pairs of shorts and a tank top to the race track, which caught some eyes, but they also allowed me to get the driving uniform on easily without the hassle of long pants. I also had a different uniform which fit more snuggly than before... I did pretty good in the race, but I am still learning, so I was happy with my results-- driving the car was a lot different as a girl, though. My legs being shorter, my feet being smaller, and my weight being different really caused problems at first, but I quickly adjusted. I was just plain beat after the race, I slept most of the way home as my father drove. So today I had to clean up all our racing stuff, unpacking the truck, all the tool boxes, tires, jack-- it really put a strait on my weaker body, but I managed. I also had to clean all the dirt off my car, since it is a dirt track I race track. Cleaning a filthy car is never easy though, so I called up Alex and asked him if he wanted to help-- I knew he would say no just like last week, but I figured I could try to sweet talk him into it, being a girl can have advantages... He accepted rather quickly... I was speechless... So I started to head out to get sponges and stuff and than realized I didn't really wanna get my clothes all wet, so knowing it was a pretty warm day, I went and put on a swimsuit, and put some shorts on as well-- THAN I went and got the sponges and buckets... So Alex came over and he helped me clean the car, we had some fun too-- a little hose fight broke out, which I couldn't help but giggle as I fought back. I also realized how much smaller I was when I was trying to clean the top of the car and was trying to reach a spot I had just a week before, but was having problems-- Alex noticed this and grabbed me around the waist and literally moved me to the side and took my place, easily reaching the spot I had missed just a bit before... After we were all done I was really beat, so Alex suggested we go in and watch a movie, which sounded fine, so we headed in. I asked if he mind seeing Finding Neverland, which I didn't expect him to agree to, but he did, so we sat down on my couch and started watching. Wasn't really interested in seeing it before, but what can I say, the girl in my has a thing for Johnny Depp. ^_^;;; It wasn't too far into the movie that Alex put his arm around me, which surprised me at first, but I knew Alex, I knew he wasn't the type to really put moves on me, so I let him pull me up next to him. I must admit, I found myself quite comfortable snuggled up next to him. I wrapped my arms around him and rested my head on his chest and we continued to watch the movie in peace. After the movie Alex headed off, not trying anything at all, which really made me respect him from a whole new angle. Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Friday, April 29th, 2005
8:54 pm	Remember the good days-- With an hour bus ride, and an hour driver after that to get back home, I had plenty of time to think. (I didn't drive all the way because of gas prices). Jody helped me to concentrate on my female past, about what to look for, and on the way home I was able to focus directly on the things that I have gone through in the past. The first thing that really came to mind was just general high school experiences, girls gym class, having home ec instead of shop, and the fact that my grades were much better than they were before. I guess I did not spend as much time loafing around as a girl than I did as a boy. Thats not saying much for us guys-- well-- you guys, as the case may be now. Also there was the experience of the Powder Puff football game that I was nothing more than a spectator of my senior year, now I have memories of participating, it was fun-- wish I was there... Than a really disturbing memory came back to me-- I had had a few girlfriends in my day, and so I just had to lightly think about it and his face appeared in my mind. He was my ex-boyfriend Kevin... I did not like the idea that I in fact had had a boyfriend or two in my life. I focused more on my latest boyfriend and about the things we had gone through, worried about the things a young girl might have done. He had gotten to kissing me and even gotten his hand under my bra, but luckily he had never had sex with me. I was relieved. I than focused on some of the summer and spring break experiences. There I was with my female friends and some male friends out at the lake partying late at night, I of course had on a pretty hot little swim suit. I liked to party as a guy, but never really went about going to them, I would go if I were asked, however. Obviously as a girl I had been asked. Alcohol were at these parties-- even as a guy I was not of legal age. I remembered to the point where things were really blurry and I was making out with one of the random girls, Jennifer, one of my friends in my memory, to the cheers of others. I also remembered making out with one of my friends, Alex Rommel with us feeling each other up-- I cant remember much after that thanks to the alcohol that was in my system, but I am confident nothing happen-- I have always been mildly responsible. Alex was one of my friends back when I was a guy, I knew he went to some of the parties-- guess he was a friend with me as a girl too-- the idea of making out with him though-- gah! Many other memories came to mind, but none of them were as prominent as some of these, and also not as entertaining for the reader, so I will cut it off there... I am really wondering exactly how much more outgoing I am as a girl, and am curious if Jody had something to do with that, I am going to have to ask her the next time I see her. I have not gotten to the point where I have felt more outgoing than usual, but I don't know if I would realize it if I was suddenly acting more on impulse than I used to, I am not sure how I would act different from them to now-- everything I am doing now feels normal, but I honestly can't place it if it is different. The only people who knew the old me are Johnina, Jody, and Aimie, and none of them interacted with me in real life for more than a few hours-- So it may be a question I never get the answer for. After I got home I just wanted to relax, so I had a couple Smirnoff's, and found that I quickly got drunk-- much faster than usual-- I usually never used to drink enough to get me drunk, and now the same amount gets me pretty buzzed. I tried to sober myself some before writing this, and had a friend proof read it for me, so hopefully its not too bad. Current Mood: buzzed (Comment on this)
11:40 am	More than I wanted to know... So Jody made me take some random "What are you" quiz while I was at her house... Honestly, I don't know what I should think about the results... Romantic Girl: Yes, you love to be around your family, friends and boyfriend...in fact you like so much that you are prepared to die for them...that's kinda cute and...freaky, isn't it?! Don't over react life's worth living and lovers come and go! What's your anime-girl steriotype?! brought to you by Quizilla I think thats a little more than I wanted to know about myself, especially seeing as I do not nor plan to have a boyfriend... Current Mood: distressed (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 28th, 2005
10:49 pm	The story so far I am at Jody's home now, wanting to talk to her about my first week's experiences and a few other things. In the process, she helped me setup a LiveJournal. So Jody, Aimie, and Johnina met up after my race at the Bakersfield Speedway last Saturday, and traveled up to my home next to the lake. She used her ovalisk thing on me and than I went to bed as they headed to their hotel. The next morning, I awoke to find myself as a surprisingly attractive young lady. I was never really one to doubt my friends, but seriously, a thing to make me transform genders? It was unheard of. I really agreed to it because I thought there was no way it would work, and was curious if she could prove me wrong. The next morning the three girls arrived at my place and Jody told me they were going to take me shopping. I was quite hesitant about it at first, but I quickly changed my mind as I decided the idea sounded really fun. It was obviously the girl in me talking. I put on some clothes, now having to choose from a feminine selection, so I chose a sleeveless T and some hip huggers, not wanting to wear some of the more girly things I found in my closet. We arrived at the mall and I was surprisingly interested in looking at clothes and was even tempted to try a few things on, but it could not last too long as the others did have to get back to their own home before the day was over. I bid farewell to them and we went our separate ways. I than had time to dwell in my own female-ness. Jody had suggested I look at some of my old high school yearbooks. I noticed that my senior yearbook was now class of 2004, rather than 2003, which surprised me, as I was expecting taking a step over the gender lines would cause me to graduate sooner, rather than later. I checked my drivers license and found that it didn't in fact make it so I graduated sooner-- I graduated at age 17 rather than 18. However, my birth year was also now 1986, as opposed to 1984. Why Jody felt the need to make me two years younger, I may never know. I went back to the yearbook and was surprised to see myself in some clubs I wasn't normally associated with. Not to mention the rather flirty senior photo that all girls had. Also included in it was my senior page, which lots of pictures of me as a little girl, which made me slightly uncomfortable at first, but felt normal after thinking about it. There was also a picture of me from prom... in a beautiful dress... with a guy for a date. And more so-- pictures of me with other girls, being-- girly. And one of us at the lake in swimsuits. The list goes on of things I found in here that made me do double takes. Monday came by and I realized that I still had to go to classes, which frustrated me at first because I couldn't figure out what classes I was to go to, but shortly after I was able to remember, which was weird. Shortly after I could recall the classes I had for Mondays, I became quite nervous. Health was one of the classes, however, the other class was Jazz Dance. I got to the college and nervously entered the girls locker room, something a young boy only imagined about, however, this is not what I had in mind. I met a few other girls in there who know who I was, and I knew their names like they had always been my friends, and I knew I hung out with them. They really were just friends, but new to this life. I knew the locker combo and everything I needed. I entered the dance class looking nervous, but that nervousness was quickly diminished as the classes and music started and my body seemed to do everything for me. It was quite nerve wracking, but fun and interesting at the same time. I never knew I was so flexible. (Well, I wasn't until the day before...) Health was a normal class in the stadium style seating, I had already had it before so I knew it quite well. If one good thing came out of it, it put me one year earlier in college so I had had some classes already, which means I'd be able to do well in them this time. I had some friends from dance here, along with a few others, a few guys as well who I seemed friends with. Tuesdays classes were much less eventful than the dance class. I had Media and Society, a class in a stadium environment. I also had My English class and an acting class. The acting class was kinda different seeing as I did havta play more towards the female roll, rather than just acting casual, but I did not have to worry too much about it, however, I am sure that in a few weeks I will be expected to really focus on it, especially since we are nearing the end of the semester and we are supposed to be doing some kind of group projects. I am paired up with two other girls and we are doing a scene that guys normally wouldn't. After my dance class Wednesday, I was in Health with the other girls and found myself staring across the room. I was not really noticing what I was doing, but when one of the other dance girls elbowed me slightly and grinned at me. It was shortly after that I realized that I was staring at a cute guy on the other side of the room. It was no problem for my body to do that, as I was just a normal girl, but it made me feel slightly uneasy at first. I concentrated throughout the rest of that class to try to figure out my sexuality like this. I am kinda bisexual like this, I figured, as I seem to have a normal attraction towards males, and I also seem to not be against the idea of snuggling up with other girls if I need to. That night I called Jody and told her I wanted to come over as soon as possible to discuss this and the memories I was trying to focus on. She told me I would be able to come over Thursday night. I wore a more risque outfit Thursday, at Jody's request. A tank top and a short skirt, since the sun was out and it was quite warm. I felt slightly embarrassed with such a lack of clothes on, but it seemed like no one really even noticed, except for the guys who were staring at me, of course. After class Thursday I headed strait over to Jody's home and she welcomed me with open arms, and I felt comfort in her grasp. I am enjoying this experience to an extent, but some of the things I have come across have made me wonder. Current Mood: contemplative (Comment on this)
10:47 pm	Explination For anyone who has not kept up with Jody Langer's LiveJournal, I am a friend of hers who underwent an interesting little transformation. Using some weird magical object, she was able to change me from a normal 20 year old male college student to an 18 year old female college student. My past was changed and memories adjusted-- I now am hoping to document the things I go through for future reference... You can view Jody's LiveJournal here. http://www.livejournal.com/users/jody_langer/ (Comment on this)